When I started this website in January this year, I promised myself to post 2 blogs every week and never lose the continuity. This is something very close to my heart, something which I want to be involved with, contribute to and be a part of. Even with my best intentions, I failed.
On day one, I thought it reasonable and valid to cut down to one post per week for the coming few months as life was getting unexpectedly hectic. I posted one blogpost for that week, and the next week I mustered all the strength I could and posted for the coming week too. After that I excused myself saying, ‘The website is new and barely anyone knows about it. I have not started marketing formally, and I barely have any new visitors to the site. Logically, I can wait till the end of April and be regular after I am more settled in my new role at work. Afterall, this is not where my money is coming from.’
That’s the end of the story. My project changed again, and I was rushing from one training to another, learning something new. I fell sick, then daughter was unwell for a while, then her exams followed, then we had many visitors, and it was a super busy hosting season till June end. Despite all these unforeseen encumbrances I managed to keep up with every other commitment, apart for the one blog post I promised myself from April.
Every day I procrastinate, make an excuse for myself my will weakens. I rationalize with myself, and I let it slide. Without any explainable reason, I am unable to make some time and keep my commitment with myself for something which is very dear and invaluable to me.
So, I ask myself, and I urge the readers also to do the same. Do your unmet promises keep you awake? Do you have the burning desire, the intensity and determination to keep the promise you made to yourself. If they don’t, then keep searching for that one thing which will keep you awake, which will urge you to achieve your goal, whatever may be the cost. Else the mind will play its game, weaken the will, and crush your resolve at the drop of the hat.
So beautifully expressed, it's written heartfully.